Wednesday, 27 June 2007

Ramblings.....part 1 of the many others maybe

Relationships why do we have it? Love why do we love, fall in love, fall out of love. People have always gone in and out of relationships in their lives. Not talking about family or friends but more like boy friend and girl friend relationship and the furthermore into marriage. People are simple beings and in a way flawed in many ways. Why do we love? Its because we have a sense to belong. We want to have a person next to you to know you to be with you and to love you. We want people to know more about us. Not all but just a certain individual. To know everything so when you see them they know when you are happy when you are sad so on and so forth whole package basically.

We are weak so we always have to depend on someone or something to help us along our life. Some are weak in a sense that when they have enough of the relationship thing they just end up being alone. People have their own reasons. Maybe they didnt find somebody, maybe someone broke their heart until it cant be fixed, some just want to be alone and some just were never asked out, some just want to work and build their career and some other reasons i may have missed.

Now i see people who are in good relationships, bad relationships, some just had enough of it they just want to enjoy it alone, and of course some are getting married. I have 2 cousins getting married like in less than 2 months time congratulations to them. But i am no focusing on them. Congrats to them though.

Now i see my friends who are in relationships. If its good then good for you. If its bad then why dont you stop? Why do you go on and cling to this so called fake hope like things will be better?? I know people who have been in rough relationships. I have been in one which i got dumped but i cant give 2 shits about it right now anyway. Things i watch do disturb me. Things i hear disturb me just as bad.

People fall in love because they want someone to know them well. They also want to know the other person just as well. Share things together, talk for hours, buy presents and stuff, go for a walk and stuff. Well there are nice things in life, beautiful things in life more than the ugly things in life. Our lives are just as short as a candle in the wind waiting to be blown out and we try to enjoy it as much as we can.

They say its better to love and lost then to not have loved at all. Maybe its true maybe its not. It could be better to not have experienced something bittersweet than to experience it. I have been here in NZ for a bit now and i could say my views have changed. It could be twisted and maybe it is but I am sort of enjoying it. The loneliness is good. It is good not having someone to cling to you. It feels very troublesome because you have to take care of the person's feelings and you have to do things for that person to make that person happy. Then you have to take care of what you say because even the slightest mistake can cause an argument. Shit happens. Guys do their best to understand girls....most of the time maybe girls try to do the same. Its like when a guy says yes it means yes and a no means a no. When a girl says yes then it either means yes or if you do it you are so in trouble. When she says no it means yes or no. Very confusing and vexating.

Feels Like A Beautiful Sadness

Congrats to my 2 cousins for getting married
P.S. I am writing this coz I am low on sugar. I need a fix.

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